Life These Days.

 

 

Although I will be an official senior in a mere forty-eight hours, i reserve the right as a seventeen year old to be reckless. Thus i am ending my days as a taker in the thirty day challenge. I am not at all sorry. Because it was not interesting, to me at least. Life took over, like it always does unfortunately. A senior. Senior year. I will soon be an alumni of Kaufman High School. Wow. I am very much a ball of excitement, nerves, and sadness.

Shall I start with the first? Excitement. I am thoroughly excited to be a Senior at the hick high school that I regrettably attend. My life is starting! Finally. I am so ready to be out from behind those lovely classmates of mine. Wonderful people, I tell ya. This year shall be undeniably wonderful. Harder academically for sure. It will require oodles more focus and dedication. Far less procrastination. But in a short years time I will get to finally do the things that I want to. I will get to finally study the things that interest me. That ,I believe, makes all of my hard work over the past twelve years worth it. Okay so we’ve covered that emotion.

Number two. Nerves. I am extremely nervous about being a Senior at the hick high school that I regrettably attend. My life is starting! What do i do?! Like I told my mother, I cant even drink! How I am I supposed to decide what I want to wake up and do for the rest of my life?! I guess this is the type of gambling you are supposed to engage in until you are of age. Gambling with your future. Why is it that I knew exactly what I wanted to do when it didn’t matter. Now , for the life of me, I cannot make a decision. No matter what I think I want at that second in time, I invariably come back to a toss up between Psychology and Teaching. I have no idea. I am truly at a loss. Two emotions down, one to go.

Number three. Sadness. I am totally and extremely sad about being a Senior at the hick high school that I actually, at some times, enjoyed attending. I am lucky. I have been blessed with having some of the most amazing teachers. They have really made all the difference in the person I am today. I don’t know if I am ready to leave. I feel like I am not ready, like I haven’t made the most of high school as a life experience. Right now I am, for the most part, satisfied with the way my life has turned out. But I just wonder if at some point I am going to look back and regret the way I poured myself into my school work and responsibilities. Neglecting my social life for a novel or Physics test. Those wonderful classmates I mentioned earlier, they aren’t like me. Not in the slightest. Our priorities are polar opposites. Which I do see as a good thing. But is it a doubled edged sword? Maybe. Hopefully not.

It is kind of weird, I am usually very enthusiastic when it comes to school supplies. I do love them. But I don’t even care this year. I have the mentality of “I’ve been doing this for twelve years, it is the last time I have to buy an ‘in dress code’ shirt, let’s get it over with”. Hah. Times are changing that is for sure.

Hm. What else is new on the home front? I have a new roommate. My good friend is living with us now. It’s kind of strange. Sharing. Hah. I might as well have been an only child, for I do not share well. My sister and I are ten years apart, my brother never lived with me, so I’ve never even shared a bathroom with someone who was on the same schedule as me. But so far we are making it work well. I think we’ll come out with our friendship unscathed. I hope so.

I would like to make a toast. To the next ten or so months. Senior year. May you be difficult, and nothing I expect. *raises fancy glass of Dr. Pepper* Cheers!

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Peace

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