My summer ends in nine days. I move away from home for the first time in nine days. This has been the best summer I’ve had in years. Honest to goodness, years.
I’m starting to change. I can already feel it. But not in a bad way, not at all in a bad way. I’m growing up I’m becoming more independent. But the biggest thing is I am having more fun. A lot more fun.
This summer I’ve gotten close again with my best friend, I’ve made a new close friend.
I’ve spent the entire summer reacquainting myself with my best friend. How I’ve missed being this close. I’ve also gained another best friend. From late night swing sessions to all night Harry Potter marathons, ramblings, timelines. Library runs, and rolling into Denny’s at three in the afternoon, in our pajamas, looking hungover when we’ve really just rolled out of bed after being up till four in the morning chugging Dr. Peppers and eating eggs and toast. I’m going to miss the care free air of this Summer.
I let a lot of things go, I made good on some old promises, I kissed that boy I should have kissed years ago, I did very “un-Dannelle” like things, but maybe I just did things that high school Dannelle wouldn’t do. I had fun with you, yes you, just for the hell of it. And I loved every second of it.
I’m not sure how I feel about the fact that maybe that was the highlight of my summer. Hanging out with you was so much fun, in a nervous, butterflies in my stomach, sort of way. You made me feel alive. You made me feel really great about myself. You made me laugh, and smile, and I hate that we go back and forth like this, because you are absolutely amazing. Your friendship means so much to me.
I move away from home for the first time in nine days. All of my shopping is done. In theory, I should be totally prepared. I’m going to miss my family so, so much. Just today I almost lost it.
You see, the family dog, Belle, is actually getting quite old. I’m the baby of the family, even to her. With me gone, she’s all my parents have. I’m so scared that I will be away at school when something happens to her, and my parents are going to be all alone. They’re not going to know what to do. Today, I made my sister pinky promise me that if something happens to Belle, she will drop everything and go home.
Right now I am at my Nannie’s for the weekend. This is the last time I’m going to see her before I move. And I mean, don’t get me wrong, I am really excited to get down to College Station. But I love my family and being around them so much, I know I’m going to miss them a lot. Some time in this next week, I’m going to have to take a picture of all of my dogs, and my horses, and quite possibly the cows, just so I can look at them everyday.
So now that I’ve been depressing, cheers to this new Dannelle. A fun, independent, misses her Mommy, Daddy, Sissy, Nannie and Belle, Dannelle.
Peace
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