Loneliness adds beauty to life. It puts a special burn on sunsets and makes night air smell better.

So I just figured out how to blog from my computer without actually getting on BlogSpot... Interesting...

Man the first week of junior year is almost over. I don't know if I'm happy or sad to be a junior. I love my schedule. Well for the most part. I don't think this year will be that hard. I can't believe that I will be taking the SATs and getting ready to apply to colleges in less than a year! It won't be my first time taking the SATs but still! Lol. College? 0College! Wow. A&M all the way baby! Hopefully. Man wouldn't that be awesome? My grandfather would be so proud of me. So I'm hoping that my sister and I will be able to go see the Gary Allen, Stoney LaRue, and Eli Young Band concert like next week.

So Mrs. Lambert, my art teacher, is trying to convince me to take Art 3 AP next year. I would take 2D design for photography. But idk I kind of had my schedule all planned out. And Art 3 never crossed my mind, wouldn't that be awesome to get college hours for my hobby!? Lol. Like I said, idk because I had planned on doubling up on English and History next year.. I am going to graduate with like 7 elective credits lol. The mandatory is 1. So my Nannie is coming to our house in the morning, from Irving, because she is starting to get really lonely. My "step- uncles" decided that they wanted to sell my grandparents townhouse so they told my Nannie that she has to move out in two years. And she has to pay for all of Louis' medical bills that the insurance didn't with her own money. Not the CDs that were meant for his bills. So things on that front are pretty crappy.

I really feel like taking some pictures, but it's already dark of course. =/

Well I have to go finish my PreCal homework… Joy…

Peace

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Junior Year

Should I being jumping for joy because of my only having 2 years left or dreading another year of being told I'm too quiet and having my name pronounced wrong by a bunch of hicks? Not in the best mood. Pretty good schedule. Exline's Aide! Yay. Got my UIL covered. I think Kelly should see if she can join ;) lol.

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It's my grandfather's birthday. Today is going to be a long day..

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Holy Crap.

My grandfather died Wed. and it hasn’t fully sunken in yet. It feels like I just got punched in the stomach. My whole summer has been spent at hospitals and nursing homes with my grandfather. We got the call and drove to Irving at 8:45 Wed night. The first day wasn’t that bad, because it didn’t seem real. The second day, my mom broke down. And everyone was just really angry. Yesterday, was bad. It was rainy and horrible. My sister broke down. Today was a little better. I still haven’t broken down and I know the longer it takes the worse it will be. The viewing/rosary will be Tuesday and the mass is Wednesday morning. Why can’t everything go back to freaking normal? I mean he was the only grandfather I ever had? The worst thing I think, is catching yourself the first time you use the present tense after their gone. Then the room goes silent and no one knows what to say. I don’t know if I can handle anymore.
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